What Kills Me
is not the lack of options, but rather the confluesense of them: everything running together into a nexus, and there I am, standing alone, trying my best to see the Best Case Senario....
It's not impossible, is it? It's not completley unatainable?
Or, really. In the end, it doesn't matter.
Best case or not, the people I care about are capable, remarkable human beings. They will (despite obstacles, and in spite of prodigous hinderances) thrive. I love them all for it, surving the shit.
But it doesn't stop me from worring.
For good or ill, I have taken on friendships that are just as involved and complicated as romantic realationships, and in many ways they're taking just as much out of me.
It's not impossible, is it? It's not completley unatainable?
Or, really. In the end, it doesn't matter.
Best case or not, the people I care about are capable, remarkable human beings. They will (despite obstacles, and in spite of prodigous hinderances) thrive. I love them all for it, surving the shit.
But it doesn't stop me from worring.
For good or ill, I have taken on friendships that are just as involved and complicated as romantic realationships, and in many ways they're taking just as much out of me.
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